I had to laugh at myself last week as I was carefully choosing my first day of school outfit. Some things never change. Yet. I may be older than 5 years old now, and I may be a teacher/performer of music, but I am still that young girl that gets so excited when the school year is starting! Whom will I meet, what should I wear, will I find the rooms okay, will I do okay, will it be the same joy as last year-these are just some of the questions that swirl around in my sleepless nights before.
In fact, I don’t know if my body, mind and spirit can ever be okay with not going to school in September. Many of my friends have retired and are comfortable with the process. They were ready. I am not. I guess I am a weird one, setting a different path up that isn’t the typical norm.
I can’t imagine a day of not teaching, dreaming, composing, performing, writing and being in the thick of actively sharing all of what I can offer as a result of my years of experience. I am sure at the right time, if there will ever be a right time for my personality, I will look forward to that open spaciousness of time that some of my friends now have, but all I know for sure is that this year is not the right time for me.
It is a time to continue blossoming, sharing my wisdom and personality, and receiving the lightness and spark that children bring out within my own spirit. Truth be told, I am even thinking of other careers to embrace after this one! And so…here’s to another wonderful year of unexpected surprises, learnings, teachings, sharings and joy!
Here’s to wonderful new beginnings, and even if you are not a teacher choosing his/her outfit for the first days of school, we are in a new season of hope, love and embracing new wisdoms and new people. Let’s all support each other and offer unconditional love for our self and each other.
—Cheryl Melody chermelody@aol.com www.cherylmelody.com